[M] For the first couple of weeks when we had G, whenever she would get fussy, I would immediately go and search for a pacifier; something that would soothe and calm her. This worked for a bit, but pretty soon, she began to reject it. Sometimes she would reject it by tasting it for a bit and then spitting it out. Sometimes, when I would put it by her mouth, she would just tightly seal her lips as if to say, "Hey buddy, I know what you're trying to do and it ain't gonna work this time." I'm almost positive that's exactly what she's thinking in those moments.
But recently, I discovered a new method of soothing her - running water. I think S may have first suggested it to me a while back, but I don't think I tried it until the other night. I was in the kitchen trying to get a bottle ready for G, while she was crying her cute little eyes out (side note: I crumble into pieces when my baby girl starts crying. I think she might already have me around her finger. Yikes). And while she was crying, I turned on the sink and then she started to calm down. So I let the water run as I prepared the bottle. And she was silent the whole time.
I began to use this technique throughout the night to bring serenity to my little G, but even in my downgraded brain activity state, I realized this could end up being a costly means of calming my baby. LIGHT BULB! I googled "water noises for babies" or something like that and sure enough, there were many websites that covered this amazing phenomenon. I explored a little bit, but then I settled on this one link...
http://www.freesound.org/people/roscoetoon/sounds/26402/
I've listened to this 5 second clip (it can be looped) for hours on end (I'm even listening to it as I write). And that first night I discovered it, it was really sweet. I placed my laptop near G and just let the soft sounds soothe her to sleep. And as I laid there in the dark, God spoke to me a very familiar passage:
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside
quiet waters, he restores my soul." - Psalm 23:1-3
It was incredibly sweet to hear God's voice in that moment. I was using the calming sound of "quiet waters" to bring rest to my troubled daughter, and in the same way, God wanted that for me as well. I had gotten so caught up in the stresses of ministry, family, future and the distractions of facebook, email and TV.
But once I disconnected from the internet and TV, it provided the breath and room for Him to lead me to those
quiet waters.
That evening, the house was dark. I was alone with God and G. And in that moment, I realized that I had been searching for the wrong "pacifier." I should have been looking for THE Pacifier. The only One who knows my fears, doubts and insecurities. The only One who knows my troubles better than I do. The only One who can calm the storms within. The Prince of Peace.
All it took for me was to get unplugged. (Yes, I recognize the irony of posting about this while being on the internet. It's similar to when people update their status as "I'm praying right now"...yes, but you're on FB.)
Anyways, here are a couple of pics to celebrate G's 1 month birthday (and one random cartoon):
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| Chillin' by quiet waters |
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| Happy 1 month, G! |
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| Not sure if it's visible - it says "1 month" on her shirt. |
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| Check out the look she's giving me - haha! |
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| For her 1 month bday, we took her out to Target. When she wears this jacket, I love picking her up because she feels like this giant fluffy pink cloud. "She's so fluffy, I'm gonna die!" |